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December 14th, 2004

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December 7th, 2004

07:02 pm - hey there So Myspace is being a brat and something is wrong with the sight so I thought I come back to good ol' livejournal and update a bit since it's been so long (...Happy now Adam? haha) Umm yea so lotta things have been upsetting lately...thank you to those who have noticed and genuinely care. It means the world to me. You all keep me a float. (Micah~ were gonna pull out of this together...no more no more no more! right?! RIGHT!) umm yea and no thanks to the people who are falsely there or come back around when they finally notice somethings wrong. Sometimes you need people when things aren't wrong at all....that's called being a friend.... Friends is a word we use every day but most of the time we use it in the wrong way Some people say that they got your back but you can tell a true friend by the way they act And if you ask me know I can't be much help 'cause a friend's somebody you judge for yourself Doesn't matter what I think I see because a friend to you might not be a friend to me Some are mellow and they act cool others treat you like you're a fool Some are always on your side and others just want to take you for a ride And this list goes on again and again but these are the people that we call friends Friends-how many of us have them Friends-ones we can depend on Friends-how many of us have them Friends-before we go any further let's be friends yea anyway .... hw is beckoning ...loudly...along with apps ...so...bye If you want to know what's wrong, I'll tell you what I can, just ask.......but if I don't tell you what the problem is...maybe you're part of it. Current Mood: Getting better I think Current Music: Nickleback ~Believe It Or Not

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November 28th, 2004

02:54 pm - My Space I joined my space if anyone cares...gymrat62887@sbcglobal.net Current Mood: blah

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November 27th, 2004

11:04 pm - Thoughts and Prayers that are badly needed Please, even if you aren't religious, keep in your thoughts and prayers these people: Micah ~ I know you're in the hospital again. You'll pull through. I need you to pull through. George's friend Phil's grandma ~ Bad heart situation. We've all known someone who's gone through something like this. It can get better and I hope she does. Family friend's of ours ~ Been trying to have a baby. Invitro ~ got pregnant and were gonna have twins. Something's gone terribly wrong. Mother was in jepordy for awhile. Babies are most likely if not already lost. My dad ~ I just don't know ... No one can make me cry as hard and as much... And anyone who needs a prayer... Why is it when things just start to go right, my world gets knocked over? I feel like I'm losing it all. My friends My family My talents My security Current Mood: disillusioned Current Music: Jewel

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November 25th, 2004

12:37 pm - Thanksgiving Happy Turkey Day!!! Eat lots and be merry! I'm thankful for every single on of you ;0) Current Mood: grateful

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November 19th, 2004

12:55 pm - Long time no write "realizing you care about someone will knock you sideways"- Jude Law There are a lot of people I care about in this world I'm realizing. And though I've whittled down who I spend my quality time with...I still don't seem to have enough. But to all those I do love and care about, I hope you know who you are, thank you for everything. You guys are amazing and make me who I am. I'm sorry to those who have to put up with my fits and inconsistencies. You are truly champions of patience. Love to all <3 always and forever xoxo~ Francesca Current Mood: thankful Current Music: Take My Hand~ Ben Harper and the Blind Boys of Alabama

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October 31st, 2004

08:33 pm Happy Halloween ya'll! yuum candy! ~ anyway I'm a loser and stayed home...that's cool though I'll survive somehow On anther note... Don't bad mouth me behind my back and then make nice to my face! wtf is that!? anyway yea cut that out please ~ just be real, that's the best policy umm yea yankees rock! so do the Lakers and the patriots and no I'm not a fair whether fan! I can't help it if I'm lady luck ;0) Alright enough out of me ~ I'm gonna go eat candy, adding to my already fatty self and do work! woohoo holidays involving food are evil...but I love them! Current Mood: blank Current Music: Ani Difranco

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October 26th, 2004

08:59 pm blknwhite17 (8:51:44 PM): -poke- gymrat62887 (8:54:19 PM): lmao blknwhite17 (8:55:01 PM): -pokes fran in eye- gymrat62887 (8:55:43 PM): OUCH! meany blknwhite17 (8:56:38 PM): sry, my aim's a lil off w/o my glasses gymrat62887 (8:57:45 PM): LMAO!!! MICAH I LOVE U!!! just a splash of micah's comic genius and now for my stupidity... gymrat62887 (8:56:02 PM): nm ~ tell me later dear god now I'm screwed gymrat62887 (8:56:08 PM): this is all your doing ...did you catch the double entendre? lol Current Mood: amused

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October 25th, 2004

06:21 pm - Extremes Alright well I've got some good new and bad news....I'll start with the bad so whoever reads this (aka no one but me haha) will hopefully have lost whatever distressed feeling they had from the bad news (at least I hope they'd feel because I feel it) when they read the good news. Anyway here it is: Two more have passed and I'm starting to get scared cause this seems to be a reoccurring thing now. First of all, I want to send my sincere condolences to Micah who's dog T-Bone had to be put down. I know he's running around in the green fields of heaven with all the fire hidrens and bones that he could want, but losing a pet I know is one of the hardest things in the world. I can't bare to face the reality that one day that might be my puppy Rosie (fyi: Rosie is 12...but I still call her my puppy) Second was my great aunt's sister. She was 54 or something and died suddenly from a hemorrhage or something just like Marissa. It's not fair when someone is taken away from you like that ~ I can't understand God's reasoning behind it. We lost a really good family friend quickly from a sudden heart thing a couple years back and it still doesn't always seem real...sometimes I still think he's gonna come over again for dinner and entertain us with his crazy theatre stories that he'd launch into with insane enthusiasm. But I guess you're never ready to lose someone, like tony or my good friend's grandparents who had become like my 3rd set of grandparents. I cry for them and miss them deeply some days...but on others, I can't even fathom that they're gone. And then of course I'm always left with the question WHY?! but aren't we always...~ I guess a buddhist might say, that just the way things are. That's life. And it's true. And the truth hurts. And then I sound cliche, but whatever...I guess somethings can never be fully reconciled until youre at the pearly white gates or where ever people go...gosh I kinda hope we do go somewhere...ok that's a tirade for another time ANYWAY! GOOD NEWS....yes that would be a good thing about now. Ok Though all these sad things have been happening, I still have managed to be pretty happy! It's kinda weird..can't really explain it. Just some really fun things have been happening in the mixed up jumble of the rest of my busy life like.......HOMECOMING! Such a fun night! There was a whole group of us there and it was just....a blast! what more can I say ~ thanks to all those who were there. Goodtimes goodtimes and it's little things like that, just spending quality time with friends, GOOD friends, ones that make me happy, that are always there for me and just make me smile when I just think of them....you know who you are, even if I'm not always with them, that has been making me so happy lately ~ just kept me a float and given me hope (it's rhymes! how lame! o well) So in conclusion...yes youre almost done, I'm surprised if you;ve stayed with me this long... thank you for those who give me hope. And please, share it with those who might be on empty right now ~ we've only got each other in this life...It's why I believe we are all here...to be with each other and to learn and grow from the experiences we share...and then as the buddhist say... we die. But while we live...and let it be for a long time...lets try to enjoy those awesome moments shall we? Because one can never say this phrase enough: I love you. I love you. I love you. Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: It's been varying so much I couldn't even tell you

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October 21st, 2004

10:07 pm - why?!?! I will forever be asking myself ... why do bad things happen to good people? Current Mood: gloomy Current Music: Rufus Weighright (sp?)

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October 18th, 2004

08:33 pm - Congrats! CONGRATS TO JEN ~ You completely deserve to be on this court and I really hope you win queen darlin! CONGRATS TO CHELSEA ~ Florida Tech made a very smart choice in accepting you! CONGRATS TO MICAH ~ Welcome home buddy CONGRATS TO THE REDSOX ~ Yankees are gonna kick your asses next game ;0) Current Mood: ecstatic Current Music: I'm feelin so good ~ Jennifer Lopez

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October 17th, 2004

10:59 pm - why can't I stop smiling? I couldn't help it ~ she's so amazing and these songs just seem to fit my life perfectly right now ~ enjoy Pale September: Pale September, I wore the time like a dress that year The autumn days swung soft around me, like cotton on my skin But as the embers of the summer lost their breath and disappeared My heart went cold and only hollow rhythms resounded from within But then he rose, brilliant as the moon in full And sank in the burrows of my keep And all my armour falling down, in a pile at my feet And my winter giving way to warm, as I'm singing him to sleep He goes along just as a water lily Gentle on the surface of his thoughts his body floats Unweighted down by passion or intensity Yet unaware of the depth upon which he coasts And he finds a home in me For what misfortune sows, he knows my touch will reap And all my armour failing down, in a pile at my feet And my winter giving way to warm, as I'm singing him to sleep All my armour falling down, in a pile at my feet And my winter giving way to warm, as I'm singing him to sleep First Taste: I lied in an early bed, thinking late thoughts Waiting for the black to replace my blue I do not striggle in your web because it was my aim to get caught But daddy longlegs, I feel that I'm finally growning weary Of waiting to be consumed by you Give me the first taste,let it begin heaven cannot wait Forever Darling, just start the chase -- I'll let you win but you must Make the endeavor Oh, your love give me a heart contusion Adagio breezes fill my skin with sudden red Your hungry flirt borders intrusion I'm building memories on things we have not said Full is not heavy as empty, not nearly my love, not nearly my love, not nearly Give me the first taste,let it begin heaven cannot wait Forever Darling, just start the chase -- I'll let you win but you must Make the endeavor o and I got my homecoming dress I think ~ and then another that I think I'll wear to my winter formal ~ and then two others for whatever else pops up during the holiday season ~ hey, things were on sale...why not right? hehe btw ~ all my friends are amazing ~ u know who you are ~ I love you all more than life And on a sadder note ~ to all those who knew marissa, my heart goes out to you all ~ I did not know her personally but I know many people close to her and any passing of a young soul will always be especially tragic ~ RIP Marissa ~ May angels lead you in Micah: Can't wait till your back at home again ~ I know why there's one set of footprints ~ God's carrying you in these rough times ~ and I got you hand and I won't ever let go Current Mood: both happy and sad Current Music: Fiona Apple

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October 14th, 2004

08:18 pm - Download this song ~ I have to get the CD ~ I'm in love! ok kids this is a great song and it fits very nicely with my life right now and I'm hooked. Check this kid out. I think he's awesome. Many people don't my have my taste in music but just try it. You can always delete if he's not for you ...or go buy the CD like I'm gonna do. His name is John Rouse. I think his story is something like he was a parking attendent or vallet guy who finally got his break. So help him along if you like him and get his CD. Anyway, here's the song...it's called Feeling No Pain...Enjoy! Drive In a slow right lane Cause we got some time to kill You know I love this time of year And you’re a strange Strage find I want to take all I can from you Just give me a sign And I’ll be right at your side Cause lately I’ve been feeling no pain My heart is wide open And somehow everything falls into place And it’s love Words Words that don’t come out If I’m confusing you I m just hear to clear/ clean your doubts And I’m inclined To tell you I don’t need any room to breathe I want to see you let out See you let out Sleeping on the couches baby Lately I’ve been feeling no pain My heart is wide open And somehow everything falls into place And it’s love And lately I’ve been feeling no pain My heart is wide open And somehow everything falls into place And it’s love And it’s...love And I will find a way To bring the light back to your day And I will show you And I will show you that I can change Cause lately I’ve been feeling no pain My heart is wide open And somehow everything falls into place And it’s love And lately I’ve been feeling no pain My heart is wide open And somehow everything falls into place And it’s love And it’s…LOVE Current Mood: giddy Current Music: Feeling No Pain ~ John Rouse

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October 7th, 2004

10:26 pm - No pics ~ I lied ~ but please read My tears cannot do my feelings justice, but there is nothing else that comes as close, so I am left to weep. I met some amazing people this summer at both brown and oxford, and I thought I made some really good friends. Apparently along the way I've managed to push away, annoy, or do something to cause them to feel nothing but apathy or contempt for me. At least at brown I was able to be myself, where at oxford, even after 4 weeks, I wasn't comfortable enough to act normal in my skin. Thought I would come around when I got home~didn't matter though by then. Even the one person I felt at least tried to give me a chance has given up on me. It's funny because I love you all so much and you'll never really know it. I think everyone of you is so extraordinary. I had a really awesome time with you all. I'm sorry if I ever seemed too busy to want to talk ~ that will never be the case! Yes I am often busy but I will always find time for those of you who want it because you're all totally worth it. I don't want to be a bother either so that's why I often don't IM. I donno, i know I seem like a bubbling, blubbering idiot at the moment but if I never said anything, maybe none of you would ever know that I will care if we lose touch and it will always be a dishearting thing for me. And again, as for my friends at brown: I want to say sorry to those I've let down, one esspecially in particular, you know who you are. This is all i have to say to that person at the moment: ...then I see you sanding there wanting more from me And all I can do is try Then I see you standing there I'm all I'll ever be But all I can do is try Try All of the moments have already passed We'll try to go back and make them last All of the things we want each other to be We never will be, we never will be And that's wonderful, and that's life And that's you, baby This is me, baby And we are, we are, we are, we are Free You are free to make a choice now. I've said my peace. If you want to keep in touch/ reconnect/ etc I'd be extactic ~ if not, I'm sorry for whatever I have done (if I have done something) and just know that I think you're awesome and I wish you the best of luck on all your future endevours (and no, I don't mean that as in fuck you, lol, I honestly mean it) Current Mood: gloomy Current Music: Nelly Furtado ~ Try

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October 6th, 2004

11:22 pm - All smiles Fascinating new thing You delight me And I know you're speaking of me Fascinating new thing Get beside me I want you to love me I'm surprised that you've never been told before That you're lovely and you're perfect And that somebody wants you Fascinating new thing The scene makin' Want a temporary saviour Fascinating new thing Don't betray them By becoming familiar I'm surprised that you've never been told before That you're lovely and you're perfect And that somebody wants you I'm surprised that you've never been told before That you're priceless and you're precious Even when you are not new I love 10 things I hate about you! Never get sick of the music or soundtrack. SATs this weekend...everyone give me a big WOOHOO! yea! ...yea no anyway ~ despite that thing (i can't even bring myself to write that word again) I think it should be a good weekend hehe yay! wow it just occasionally comes to me...I have the greatest friends! *le sigh* haha alright back to AP art hist woohoo! Luck to everybody taking any standardized test this weekend ...ETS shoot be shot and robbed but until then give it your best and be done with it ...no worries! (h)akunamatata (sp?) lol xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: FNT

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October 5th, 2004

05:28 pm Lately when I look into your eyes I realize You're the only one I need in my life Baby I just don't know how to describe How lovely you make me feel inside You give me butterflyz Got me flyin so high in the sky I can't control the butterflyz.... K so we talked for forever last night and then I made the HUGEST faux pas ...fuck me! I'm really such an idiot! anyway got my finger crossed that I don't scare him away like I always seem to do ...hmmm I'm gonna stop writing while I'm ahead and go eat dinner ~ I have other stuff to write about actually but I'll write it later... BTW sorry blake I thought I copied the convo and I was an idiot and copied over it and by the time I realized it I had already exed out of our box ...I'll try to do a recap though so we can get feedback later gators Current Mood: pensive Current Music: Alicia Keys

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September 27th, 2004

08:09 pm - YAY! hehehehe I'M GOING TO ST. FRANCIS' HOMECOMING!!! ( or as claudia would write...st. franics lol) I'm so happy and excited =0D teeheeheeheehee.... Current Mood: giddy

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September 24th, 2004

09:08 pm - Thank you Chris! Subject: Disorder in the Courts These are from a book called Disorder in the American Courts. They are things people actually said in court, word for word, recorded and Now published by court reporters who had the torment of staying calm while these exchanges were actually taking place. Q: Are you sexually active? A: No, I just lie there. __________________________________ Q: What is your date of birth? A: July 15th. Q: What year? A: Every year. ______________________________________ Q: What gear were you in at the moment of the impact? A: Gucci sweats and Reeboks. ______________________________________ Q: How old is your son, the one living with you? A: Thirty-eight or thirty-five, I can't remember which. Q: How long has he lived with you? A: Forty-five years. _____________________________________ Q: What was the first thing your husband said to you when he woke up that morning? A: He said, "Where am I, Cathy?" Q: And why did that upset you? A: My name is Susan. ______________________________________ Q: Now doctor, isn't it true that when a person dies in his sleep, He doesn't know about it until the next morning? A: Did you actually pass the bar exam? ___________________________________ Q: The youngest son, the twenty-year-old, how old is he? _____________________________________ Q: Were you present when your picture was taken? ______________________________________ Q: So the date of conception (of the baby) was August 8th? A: Yes. Q: And what were you doing at that time? ______________________________________ Q: She had three children, right? A: Yes. Q: How many were boys? A: None. Q: Were there any girls? ______________________________________ Q: How was your first marriage terminated? A: By death. Q: And by whose death was it terminated? ______________________________________ Q: Can you describe the individual? A: He was about medium height and had a beard. Q: Was this a male, or a female? _____________________________________ Q: Is your appearance here this morning pursuant to a deposition notice which I sent to your attorney? A: No, this is how I! always dress when I go to work. _____________________________________ Q: Doctor, how many autopsies have you performed on dead people? A: All my autopsies are performed on dead people. ______________________________________ Q: ALL your responses MUST be oral, OK? What school did you go to? A: Oral. ______________________________________ Q: Do you recall the time that you examined the body? A: The autopsy started around 8:30 p.m. Q: And Mr. Dennington was dead at! the time? A: No, he was sitting on the table wondering why I was doing an autopsy. ______________________________________ Q: Are you qualified to give a urine sample? ______________________________________ Q: Doctor, before! you performed the autopsy, did you check for a pulse? A: No. Q: Did you check for blood pressure? A: No. Q: Did you check for breathing? A: No. Q: So, then it is possible that the patient was alive when you began the autopsy? A: No. Q: How can you be so sure, Doctor? A: Because his brain was sitting on my desk in a jar. Q: But could the patient have still been alive, nevertheless? A: Yes, it is possible that he could have been alive and practicing law somewhere. Current Mood: devious Current Music: Jessie's Girl

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September 23rd, 2004

09:18 pm What Would Have Worn In The 80s? Name / Username  On Your Feet..  Converse Your Hair Was..  ponytail on top of head Your Hair Styling Must Was..  L.A Looks Hair Gel Your Favorite Accesory Was..  Skinny Tie Your Favorite Outfit Was..  Neon Green Shirt With Ruffled Skirt With Black Leggings And Yellow Converse Your Favorite Year Was..  1987 This Quiz by burnin_up - Taken 6260 Times. </a> New - Dating Advice written by YOU! Current Mood: giggly

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05:49 pm - Good vibrations Sometimes I forget among the muck of daily life how sublimely happy I am. I'm so much happier with my situation so far this year at school then I've ever been I think, even though I am working so hard. I love being a senior!!! BTW! My favortie fraternal twins had a 18th birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY FELLAS! Everyone leave Jimmy and Chris nice birthday messages! Back to homework...but life is good ~ It is all in the way you look at things ~ I swear it's what makes the biggest difference Current Mood: happy Current Music: Retro pop ~ haha I know I'm terrible

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